Second Chance? | chota's Blog

Me and Dan grew closer though it was to me just something to do being around him. It was strange having to get to know someone when I had already done it once years before with someone else. It was like having a second chance at it and I did indeed grow to like Dan alot but it was never near the feelings i had still for Leon. He was good looking, fun, rich and drove cars. Whats not to like?

We were a very good couple together and we did have a laugh together and it was nice having Ria around too. Dan was with me when I got my first tattoo and when I became hooked on computer Sim games. The whole thing of building house and playing happy families was great to me. Life could be as great or as bad as I wanted and no one actually got hurt, it was great. Some years later my mate said its that I like playing God, though in life people can get hurt and I end up feeling bad. The games were just simple harmless fun.

It was again pantomine time and Dan was helping backstage with my Dad and my brother. As they spent all time on stage we had to make our own fun backstage and this year there was plenty of it. There were two new guys E and N this year and we talked and laughed and we got on great backstage as well as when we were acting together. We rehersed from September right up till the final week in January and as me and N were ‘partners in crime’ so to speak we were always talking. He ended up taking me out for a few mock driving lessons, though I sat in the passenger seat and he told me what I should be doing and looking for on the road. We talked about everything so easily and he had even helped us put some of decorations up on the Christmas tree one day when we went out for our ’lesson.’

We had five shows along with a week practicing so when we were finished me Dan and Ria who joined the cast that year were finished we would go out driving before getting ready for the next day. The shows were going great and on the last day when feelings were running high I ended up out the back kissing E. It was a shock to my system but even more of a shock when his wife and two children came backstage after the matinee. I put it down to me being stupid and enjoyed the last show which ended up in the usual high and lows of taking down all the scenery and the after show party. I ended up talking to N on our own while still clearing up and I was glad we got along great even though he knew I was with Dan. I had fancied him since I first saw him and thought there was no problem in looking. Looking isn’t cheating and I knew Dan had a roaming eye since he’d realised all about what us girls were like.

We talked about a lot of stuff but when I slipped him a bit of paper with my phone number on he asked me how old I thought he was. I guessed and he said he was late twenties. This wasn’t a problem for me until he asked how old I was. Rather than say seventeen which sounded a bit young I told him id be eighteen in March. We ended up agreeing to continue to just be friends and he said he would call me. It surprised me that we had been out driving and got along so well even though neither of us actually knew how old the other one was. We went off to the club for the after party and E started chatting to me. He asked for my number and I told him to get it off N as I didn’t have my phone. I went home with Dan not mentioning about either of them to him and forgot the whole thing till the next day. N had said he would phone me so as Dan had gone home I went and sat in Leon’s shelter and waited for the call. I sat there for three hours but it didn’t come so I went home and decided to forget him.