And Then...... | chota's Blog

I went back out cruising with Dan once they had gotten back and things between us seemed to get even better. When we went to bed one night and he said he had decided he was ready to go further the one thing that popped into my head was revenge on Leon. This would surely make him feel like I did, so we did and although it seemed to take me and Dan a step further in our relationship it seemed to me to take a step back in the whole Leon saga.

I saw Leon sometimes for hours but mostly the odd half hour and things seemed strained between us though I still hadn’t told him about me and Dan. I knew I would have to at some point but I wasn’t sure when or how and was happy to have it as my own knife in his back for the moment.

It all came to head one night soon after, I had started working at the same pub with Ria so I was now working nights as well, so when Leon had phoned and I had said I was working though I was actually at a pub with Dan and some friends for his eighteenth birthday. Leon had gone down the pub on his bike and was waiting outside my house knowing I must be with Dan. When we got back I sent Dan straight inside and stopped to talk to him knowing this was my moment to tell him. After him shouting at me for still ‘messing around with Dan’. He looked shocked when he realised what was actually going on with me and Dan. He actually seemed upset and even though this was my revenge for some reason it didn’t feel as great as I had imagined it would be.

I think this was the moment I actually broke his heart, and I know he never saw me as the same person ever again. Maybe people can change completely and never go back to the way they were again, no matter how much we want to. I couldn’t understand how I had one minute been Leon’s girl and the next he had cheated on me or the fact I was now Dan’s girlfriend. Leon was everything I knew and understood but Dan was new and different and unusual to me. Leon walked down the road and didn’t look back once though I watched him till he turned the corner. Me and Dan had a bit of a tiff when I went in but I just told him that Leon was mad and that was the end of it. We went to sleep and maybe Dan thought that was the end of Leon bothering us now though I felt like I didn’t really want Leon ever not bothering me. We had been together so long it felt like something was missing.

Leon had told his mum everything that had happened so when she phoned me to come up the snooker club I thought it would be nice to have her on side which grant her due’s she was. Me and Leon sat next to each other and she said we were as bad as each other and two wrongs don’t make a right even though it makes you feel good. She knew he had broken my heart and in my shoes she has probably done the same thing. The night was going quite well until Gemma walked in bold as brass and joined us all. My anger got the better of me and when she went into the toilets I went to follow her but Leon grabbed my arm saying he would do it to Dan if I touched her. I sat back down but instead his mum went in my place telling her if she ever touched either of her sons again she’d kill her. Gemma came out shaking like a leaf and I couldn’t help but feel much better. Apart from her being there it was a real nice night and it felt just like the old days. I didn’t see Leon again for another few days but when I did it shocked me. We met in a telephone box near our local shops and when he pulled out a small box I couldn’t believe it. He had got my ring. A single Diamond gold ring. I kissed him and hugged him and he put the ring on my finger. Although he knew I needed to sort things out with Dan it seemed to him that a ring on my hand sorted out my mind. He came up a few days later and we arranged to meet at my parents on the Friday night and it would be sorted.

When he left I smiled though inside I knew it had be now or never. I had two days to decide which one and stick to my choice. No flittering about and no indecisions, just plain honesty like it used to be, be it with Leon or Dan. I knew I had a hard two days ahead and when Leon phoned the next day asking me how splitting up with Dan was I lied and told him fine even though I was as confused as ever. He said he would see me the following day and said he loved me I told him I did too and we said goodbye. I summed up the two of them in my head, my old history with Leon or a new slate with Dan. I had finally come to some sort of choice though knew It could change any minute the same way it had been for the two days id already had.