Trying To Hurt Him | chota's Blog

It turned out Leon truly was sorry for what he had done but I just couldn’t forget that he had gone as far as he had. At the end of the second week we met up and I told him I forgave him but in side I was still fuming. We hugged and went our separate ways though things didn’t go back to normal like I expected them to.

I couldnt believe what he had done to me and so i decided on getting some kind of a revenge on him. So seeing as i was now quite close as a friend with Dan somehow we hooked up and i became his girlfriend. Thing is it wasnt even really revenge. Dan was in the 'still to do it club' so it wasnt like id done what he had. Rather than just accepting what had happened and moving on i got myself stuck in a web between Leon and Dan the most stupid thing i have ever done. 

Leon found out later that week about me and Dan by mistake. Dan had been up and was just going off home when as he pulled the car out of the drive Leon and boy S jumped in front of it to try and stop him leaving. I think Leon was getting an idea of what was going on. Dan managed to get past and left but I had Leon to sort out and I knew it was time for the truth so when he asked me I told him I admitted we had kissed but that was it and that yes I was dating Dan.

We went and sat at the bottom of the road on the curb and I screamed at him for cheating on me and he screamed at me for seeing Dan I was so angry with both of them for just turning up and expecting me to be in and wanting to see them more than I was about being caught out. Id felt left out so many weeks then they both decide to just pop in and see me I was still so angry about what he had done with her I shouted at him and I cried and cursed him. Leon told me they had come up because he had missed me but rather than be grateful I said that I hated him and never wanted to see him again. I think my anger and hurt from him cheating and seeming to side with J all just came out and as I left him sitting crying in the road I realised that it was this not my hating him that made me say these things. We sorted things out but they never went back to how they were before and although i did really love Leon i was still hanging with Dan and me and Leon wernt half as close as we were before the mess happend. 

I phoned him in September I needed to really. He would see me at work and wonder what the hell had happened. We had been out in the mini as usual but just as we were going home we had crashed on the cliff top. The road was still slippery from the rain and Dan lost control so we had skidded and crashed through the barrier. I had a broken nose, whiplash, cuts and two black eyes. My nose was wrapped up and I had a neck collar on but we were on the whole we were ok. I was dazed that night and just wanted to sleep in the ambulance though they wouldn’t let me till they had checked me out. It was more of a shock to my parents I think getting to the accident after Dan had phoned them and seeing the car on the edge of the cliff.

It makes you realise how lucky you are to be alive and appreciate what you have in front of you here and now. Once I had gone back to work Leon had come in and we went out the back into the car park during my break and talked about everything from the crash to Dan and what we both wanted from life. It was so nice and we cuddled and were for once very open with each other and when my half hour was up I went back inside glad we had at least cleared some of the mess that had grown between us.