Drifting Apart??? | chota's Blog

The following weeks we saw less of each other for some reason so I went out more with Dan and the lads. It was like being two different people, I was one with Leon and another with Dan.  It was during this time I met the girl who would end up being my closest friend I have ever had. I had finished my course by this time and was working less so we had some time to enjoy before he went back to college full time.

We ended up going down the beach to meet Tarzan who was with M and my soon to be friend Ria. The boys were all talking and having serious discussions about cars and computers so I ended up talking to Ria. I knew she had been in the year above us at the same school and was neighbours with Tarzan but for some reason we just clicked that day and had a really good chat. This to me was like a new world for all of Leon’s friends were male and when girls did come round they always seemed to be off on some planet so I never really bothered with them. After that first meeting with Ria she started to come out with us a lot and we got on so well she even stuck up for me against Tarzan.

During my rebellion phase at school I had been given a choice of Friday night detentions for a month or work in the library at the school. I chose the second option as my nights were full up with Leon and I couldn’t miss those, this was in school time so it didn’t seem so bad. Tarzan was a librarian by choice and was very serious in his ’job’ wearing his shiny blue badge very proudly. He had caught me on quite a few occasions on my mobile to Leon and doing things I shouldn’t be doing or visa versa, so being ginger he got some rather nasty comments from me. He felt it was only right to talk rather loudly about me and my ‘men’ around Dan and as Ria knew the fact Leon ‘had’ been the only man in my life went on to tell him one serious boyfriend didn’t make me a slag.

When me and Tarzan eventually sat down and discussed his problem with me he had indeed thought it was lots of different men but once explained we got on better than ever. If he had known I had actually turned into what he had thought I was I’m sure we would never have got on. 

Leon had got more and more distant, we still spoke everyday but it was a long way off away from the usual twenty four hours we were normally together. A couple of weeks after basically being apart from Leon and spending more time with Dan and that lot I told Leon I wanted to see him to talk. We met up and it was clear to me just how much I had missed him and although I was glad he was still mine my mind was made up. 

It seemed so long ago that we were so sure what we were going to do. I told him I wanted a two week break to sort some stuff out in my head and give us proper time apart.  Leon knew I had been spending time with them more now we were apart. He agreed and we both said the break didn’t mean going off with other people and that once we were back properly we would decide what was the next step in our lives together.

We both agreed we would miss each other and I did miss him all the time. To me the normal thing was being around him constantly, it was quite a shock to the system to find myself out of that situation. Things seemed to decide for themselves though without any help or choice from me.